"I think I might be abusive because I lowkey have violent urges and compulsively think about hurting people and myself but I don’t know because I never act upon them except for when people hurt me first like if someone betrays me or breaks my heart so it’s justified except I might just be guilty of lying about the extent of it since I’ve threatened to kill myself but I don’t think I could literally commit suicide even though in the moment it feels like I would and honestly at this point I’ve been lying for so long and I’m in so deep that it’s too difficult to separate out fiction from reality including my memories and feelings and thoughts because I definitely started off larping as a yandere but now I’m not so sure and honestly it makes sense that I think I might be abusive because I lowkey have violent urges and compulsively think about hurting people and myself but I don’t know because I never act upon them except for when people hurt me first like if someone betrays me or breaks my heart so it’s justified except I might just be guilty of lying about the extent of it since I’ve threatened to kill myself but I don’t think I could literally commit suicide even though in the moment it feels like I would and honestly at this point I’ve been lying for so long and I’m in so deep that it’s too difficult to separate out fiction from reality including my memories and feelings and thoughts because I definitely started off larping as a yandere but now I’m not so sure and honestly it makes sense that —"
Designed and illustrated by Maria Bacila and Vincente Void